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heyy whats good???...ha lol yea its kinda crazy right now...lol im at my friends boyfriends house and he wants to do some crazy things with his girl and me...but the thing is is she is my best friend...idk if i can do it...i dont want to betray her. but other then that idk how things are...i finally woke up and realized that i need to get my life straight before i dig a hole deeper then i already have. i moved out of my parents house to get my shit straight...but yea idk....and i finally told brett that i was done trying to be with him that we are just gonna be friends...but anyways idk what else is goin on....same shit different day...lol

the life right now...

well me and brett got together but now we broke up and are still friends...we just have a stronger friendship then we do for a relationship...so it works out...but there is this other guy that i like and he is amazing...we both want the same thing but he doesnt really actually know what i want he just knows that i want to be with him...but i might be goin to hangout with him today so we can talk then...it just seems a little weird because he was my exboyfriend jimmys friend and we have wanted eachother since the day we met...and now we are finally gonna make a move after a year of not knowing we have wanted to be with eachother...my friend told me that i need to chose a guy that is gonna make me nervous and give me butterflies and everytime i see him my heart skips a beat...and everything else that she told me actually happens so its kinda weird that she told me that when it really happens like that...lol
i went to court on the 30th of april after i went to texas for 2 weeks...that was fun but court wasnt i go back on june 4th to find out more...

the life of pretty much hell...some good stuff....

heyy...so things aren't going so good right now...i had court on the first of this month and found out that i have 2 felony charges against me for bad checks...so now i have to go back on the 30th to find out exactly what is going on and what is gonna happen to me...but inbetween all of that life is goin pretty good...just been chillin with shelly and everyone...i kicked my ex out of my house yesterday..lol it was pretty fun because that was actually one time that i was allowed to be a bitch towards him without getting yelled at...normally im told to be nice to him..but i was happy when i could be the way i wanted to be but hey what can i say???? i also told him that i wasnt in love with him anymore and that we werent ever gonna get back together that i was in love with someone else and that is actually goin pretty good...we might just end up getting together before i go to jail...idk tho...;)

the life is turning for the good...lets keep it that way!!!! :)

so i had court today...i wish i would have plead guilty because then i would have just gotten a fine and been done with it...but no the prosecutor plead me not guilty so now i have to go back on the 6th of febuary. and i actually just started talking to this guy that i have known for awhile and me and my friend just found out today that he likes me the way that i thought he did but just wasnt sure...we both want to date eachother but he wants to chill first before we do...im really happy now and if i move in wit him down in the cities then i can get a job and be living good...i cant wait til the day comes...and i was actually thinkin about gettin back wit my ex...but not anymore...now i can be wit the one i like....its great and i am really happy!!!

wats goin on...

hey wats poppin...there is a lot goin on here...i jus found out that i might have to go to jail again because my checks came back....and the fact that i heard some news about a friend of mine basically cheatin on my ex jimmy wit her ex husband...i think its pretty fucked up but yet now he knows how i felt when he was doin the shit to me but he wants to hook back up wit me and work things out...but then there is someone else that i like and he likes me a lot too...and idk if i want to take the chances of gettin hurt again by jimmy. idk if i can trust him anymore...my heart wants me to so bad but its jus the fact that idk if i can...it hurts....and i love him to no end....he is my boo...he will always be my boo no matter wat or who comes between us. i love him soooooooo much...and honestly right now idc if russ quits talkin to me or not because its who i want to date...but then he is jus watchin out for me and watchin my back so i dont get hurt again because he cares...and i realize that but i want to be wit someone that makes me happy and he makes me happy most of the time. idk wat to do....

At Home....

so im at home now....i quit talkin to everyone well except my brother russ and steph...and shelly and my other brother david its gonna be hard but i know that i can do it....and i also want to go back to school and steph told me that she would give me the 20 for the application fee but i need to show her that i can and want to go back to school.....

wats poppin

hey wats good???? not a whole lot here....jus chillin...i am thinkin about movin back home and gettin back on my feet for sure..but then a part of me doesnt want to move back home but jus get my shit straight...idk i gotta think about it....